OMFG I can't think of anything to say but desperately want to update.

Weeeeee.

I drew Naruto fanart. It ... isn't horrible. The third one, anyway. Considering I had no references and was tired.
Still am tired. I've been up all night reading kikikun's fanfiction. So, I'm really tired. And yeah.

*sigh/yawn* (Yeah, it's possible.)

My History class is 4 hours long.... Fortunately, my professor is great. He's SO funny, you don't get bored at all. I mean, you feel how long the class is, but you don't really get bored. He told us to call him Bob, but I'm not quite used to it.

So, yes. College rocks. *grins* It's SO worth it.

I'm taking a Judo class as well. Hehe, it's so awesome. I LOVE IT!!! Right now, the muscles between & under my shoulder blades are swollen and very painful, but it's such a good feeling; I got it from working really hard, and from doing the technique correctly. Throwing people is such fun! *bounces*
It's just wonderful, I can't even describe it. Well, I probably could describe it if I wasn't so very, very tired, but that's just a guess.

See, this is what happens when I try to update. I just go on and on and can't put my thoughts in order. I have too many thoughts. I have LOTS of THOUGHTS. And I'm really tired.

*zones out for a few minutes, staring at the screen and thinking about how the keyboard keys feel when you just rest your fingers on them*

God damn I need to pee.


EDIT: 0.o They have an "I Have To Pee" mood. Best thing EVER.

Teenagers don't truly fall in love. We think that we do, but we really don't. The people we think we love fade in and out of our lives with each misunderstanding, unfounded jealousy, and pretty face that comes along. Our hearts are about as stable as fucking Mt. St. Helens.

If I keep telling myself that my feelings can't possibly be real, I can ignore the fact that I've been feeling this way for 5 years running.

Is it leftover guilt from his suicide attempt? Possibly. Probably. "If I'd only told him how I felt, maybe he wouldn't have done it."

My mind is constantly at war with my emotions.

*sigh* Is it too early to go back to sleep?

If I don't think about it, it doesn't hurt anymore.

I can get through tomorrow. I can. I will.

Just don't think about it.

Where were you when I was lonesome
Locked away in this freezing cold
Someone flying, only stolen,
I can't tell, this night's so old,

I don't wanna swim the ocean,
I don't wanna fight the tide,
I don't wanna swim forever,
When it's cold I'd like to die.

What was that, my sweet sweet nothing
I can't hear you throught the fog
If I holler let me go
If I falter let me know

I don't wanna swim the ocean,
I don't wanna fight the tide,
I don't wanna swim forever,
When it's cold I'd like to die.

I don't wanna swim forever,
I don't wanna fight the tide,
I don't wanna swim the ocean,
When it's cold I'd like to die.

If I don't look at him
I don't notice
That he's not looking
At me